The good list

Things to be happy about today:

1. I'm only $600 shy of my goal down payment for a new car.
2. I got a pair of rich and skinny's for $30
3. Stocking up on $60 worth of snacks!
4. I got out of bed today and I haven't been back in

Time

Wounds eventually heal with time. Be careful not to pick at the scabs... leave it alone and time will do it's magic. One day it will be gone. There might be a scar but this will just remind us how it's finally over and done with, along with the dozen of scars that faded with time.

The pain reminded me that I'm human and I am not invincible. The pain brought me back to life.
Today is that first day that I was happy to be awake.

When you are rock bottom, there is nowhere else to go but up. Keep telling myself that.

Jump

Uncertainty is my enemy. I don't jump unless I'm sure of a soft, safe, and comfortable landing to catch me when I fall. In rare occasions do I jump. I usually have one foot firmly planted on point A before placing both feet on point B.

Life isn't a gamble to me. It's stategies, statistics, plans, games, pros, and cons. Unfortunately, strategies are intercepted. Statistics are recalculated. Pros and cons jot equally. Games don't go on forever.

After the storm's passing, I find myself standing still at the edge of the cliff praying for the courage to jump. I don't want to jump on my own feet. I'm not ready.

Scallops

I'm sorry. I need you. Please come back. It hurt to see you go.

Please. I'm begging. Please.

bare

I was laying naked on the couch. It's dim inside the house but there were sun rays peeking through the blinds' crevices. I'm a little bit worried. He's used to seeing me with a full face of makeup and now with just a stitch of eyeliner that's has began to smudge down my cheek. He ran his fingers on body slowly traveling up to my cheek and out of his mouth he uttered, "So pretty." I looked right at him and grabbed my clothes.

"Maybe you should go. I'm tired." I said.

I don't like feeling vulnerable.

Thoughts

Sometimes you want filet mignon....