Take care of yourself, sweetheart.

"We met and we talked and it was epic."

Smells like fish.......

Open letter to the Girl with the Simpsons' mouth:

Congratulations! You paid $5000 for a botched double eyelid surgery to look like my big toe. I would give your face a makeover by a smack of a hot pan but looks like your mom's vagina beat me to it when she pushed your ugly ass out.

Lucky charms

I could always count on my lucky underwear. I wear it everytime I feel down and need a boost. Lots of good things have happened to me wearing this underwear. I passed my pharm tech license in these, bought my first car, passed my driver's license test, along with countless other draws of luck that I can't even remember right this minute. I've had this pair since I was a freshman in highschool and I'm sad that it now has an ugly hole in the front. I plan on cutting it up and making something out of it so I can keep it with me at all times. It's the only reason that I look forward to laundry day, so that I could have it fresh for me to wear once again. Today my boyfriend asked me to take it off and give it to him as a birthday present. I told him that he would have to give me his fancy car in exchange. That's how much I love this underwear. Who knows, I could be getting married in this very pair.

All time favorites...

Aside from looking at porno, a chunk of my time online is spent either looking at retail or reading beauty blogs. This is not a beauty blog of course and I'm no expert but I've had a love affair with makeup since my I was little playing with my grandma's makeup. Along the way I've accrued a long list of favorites that are tested true to their capabilities.

Since I'm bored right now I thought I'd list my favorites.

1. Liquid eyeliner: Revlon Colorstay is practically the same if not better than Mac's. I used to use the Mac liquid eyeliner and it would make my eyes sting like crazy. Just remember to throw it away once the felt tip begins to get soft and fiber-y.



2. Pencil eyeliner: Stila Kajal is very easy on your lids. It is very soft and easily smudged so what I do is I line my waterline with it then set it with a black eyeshadow to prevent racoon eyes later. Good drug store eyeliners from Rimmel, Revlon Colorstay, Almay but I find that Stila has the most longevity. It's worth the $18 price.



3. Eyeshadow Primer: Urban Decay Primer Potion will take your makeup to another level.



4. Foundation: Bare Escentuals. This is a no brainer, I've been using the stuff for three years now. Just remember that it does have an expiration date so don't push it because you will break it. WILL.



5. Concealer: Benefit's Erase Paste does a beautiful job of covering my undereye shadows. I'm looking to try Benefit's Boing next because I heard that it's even better but this does the job for me.



6. Mascara: Lancome knows their stuff. Good drug store finds are the Maybeline XXL line. I love the waterproof formula because it holds lash curl very well.



7. Eyeshadow: I have a long list of favorites but Milani makes GREAT pigmented eyeshadows from only $6 each. You could find Milani at Target. My favorite shade from Milani Beach Sand, it looks like just Mac's Honey Lust. It's a good neutral, everyday shimmer. Just make sure that you apply it WET for best pigmented results.



8. Skin regiment: Acne Free. I have acne prone skin and Acne Free saved my skin. I've been using it for four years now. It's pretty much a generic and less harsh version of Proactive. You can find this at Walmart from $20.



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I know I only listed a couple of things from a hundred things that I do use but my objective was to list the basics (i.e. eyeliner, eyeshadow, face makeup, etc). Also, I am still learning about different types of products. I'm still in the market for my perfect bronzer, and blush for example. There are so many things out there and I only hope that sharing my loves could help someone out there the same way

Salvage ships

My days are a blur. With everyday passing through like water through fingers, it seems that way. Today I woke up and I thought to myself, "fuck I'm in a rut."

While my busineses are in order (very happy about), I now have the time to notice the gaping holes in my romantic relationship that I've tried to plug shut with something I call bullshit. My boyfriend and I are sailing on a salvaged boat built with planks of comfort from being each other's company. Some people are more than happy with a "constant", a constant company in his or her lives. A "constant" is something familiar like that tatered Carebears blanket that you stroke a hundred times in order to fall asleep at night. When we feel down that constant is something that we crave because he or she could produce comfort better than a pint of Ben and Jerry's, hence when he or she is gone Ben and Jerry is second best.

My relationship is in power struggle for equilibrium. We both want each other, yes. It's a fight of our lives, whether or not to meet each other half way, outside of our comfort zones to make it work or to just stay in our sides. We are both fiercely holding down our forts. No one is budging because we like the idea of "us". We like the idea of having each other even if it meant having to turn our cheek on the creaks and leaks of this salvaged ship.

Like pulling out a bandaid from a hairy part of your leg... I like the suspense I suppose.

You're my angel. Nothing's gonna make you fall from heaven.

Song of the day: "They Don't Know" By Jon B.

Only I would detour to the drive thru at Sonic 2 minutes from my house because I wanted to finish listening this song on the radio.

The ball is rolling.

I'm on a momentum right now... a good one at that. Everyone reaches that point in his or her life when everything is in sync, equilibrium, and maybe even nirvana when I can hear the angels sing in harmony. Well, not the angels singing part but the in sync part, yes. I do feel like my ducks are in line. I'm not saying that I have accomplished everything I set to do this year but I'm in good track.

My mantra for 2009 is "No more shortcuts." No jinx to that.