Cycles

My entire life operates around cycles. I wander off from my point of origin for quite some time but eventually I end up back at square one. Once in a blue moon I complete an era and break away from my orbit just to begin yet another cycle.

Today my coworker kissed me in the cooler and I kissed back. Then I wonder, "What the fuck am I doing?" I have two wonderful men who I can't even make decision upon and here I am adding another item on my laundry list. Two wonderful men that I want equally. Two wonderful men that go to bed thinking that I am theirs.

A girl from work asked me how I am able to manage double lives. I told her the following...

1. Lie.
2. Never admit you're wrong.
3. Never apologize.
4. Never feel bad.

I'm spinning in place. Eventually I will tire out and end up alone or content. Anyway, isn't happiness the pot of gold we all seek at the end of the rainbow; no matter how many cycles or revolutions it takes to get there.